Can you imagine I'm still packing, throwing everything into my luggage at this very moment? Mom and sis are nagging and they seems so panic! Well, can't help I'm still a procrastinate princess. Mom's been so emotional these days. I know she cares for me especially my health conditions are worrying her. I wish I had the courage to apologize on my awful demeanours that she had unhappily tolerated. I wanna tell my parents how much I love them. It's my fortune to have them as my parents. They spoiled me too much. I bet you never want to know how rebellious I am. Don't be surprise, their main intention of sending me overseas were hoping me to be independent!
Boyfriend and I were on the verge of ending things between us. I was really harsh in asking for break up. I didn't want to lose him. I always wondered if he's the one that I'm gonna end up with? I love him. So much till I don't even have words to express the feelings. However I often have this wary thoughts that he's going to dump me some day. Feeling insecure due to the horrifying past experiences. I dislike people who don't deliver their promises. And to those pretentious fella who wears a pseudo mask, keep your distance from me!
We have been together for almost 6 months but throughout these period, I've indicated that the relationship isn't working. He likes gaming and doesn't pay much attention to me. Futhermore, I'm not that kinda person who can open up when confronted. I took up the evil role, liking another guy in lieu. Yes I'm an idiot for doing so! Everyone thought I would choose the guy over my boyfriend. Alas, this guy said something that makes me reconsider my decision. I felt disgust the moment he told me that no one else in this world could treat me better and give me happiness except him! Sweet talks? Meanwhile boyfriend was the one who remained calm and discussed with me nicely whilst he's pissed. Though we often have little arguements; never once he have the thought of hurting me. I felt so warmth when he whispered that he will wait for me. Am truly sorry and I hope we can overcome those challenges ahead.
My heart feels really really heavy now. Was in a rush when I made up my mind to study abroad. Sorry if I couldn't allocate any time slots for anyone of you before my departure. I'll miss you guys for sure. Thanks dearies for organising me a farewell dinner and not forgetting those gifts! Damn! You people made me cried whole night!
- Happy 21st Birthday Joshua Yeoh! May you have a blast celebration! -
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